If it all Really Matters

If it all Really Matters

How quickly

Does my life start to feel

Like disaster

And I wonder if it all

Really matters

As much as I think

When my heart begins to sink

The moment

All my strivings seem

To fail

And fear sets in

And tears build up

And everything in me screams

I'll never be good enough

Who sets the scale?

Does it matter if I measure up?

To whose standards?

Theirs?

My own?

Could it be that there's

More than what I achieve

And what people think

Of me?

Something

That won't just be forgotten

Next year or next week

Can I let it be?

Can I learn to see

And receive the peace

Of strivings ceased?

Just allow my Beloved

To love me

And lead me

Find Security

In the glory

Of the power that drives me to my knees

Can I drop the pride

and simply cry

"Thank You!"

Because I've been set free

And His love goes beyond what I achieve

He freely works through me

In ways I can't conceive

Can I look at all the things

I do

And realize

It doesn't matter really.

Because Life is beyond me.

I am free indeed.

Stephanie M. Frakes

(November 17, 2010)