Taking five minutes of my lunch break to join in again. Five minutes to be free, to breathe, to let fingers fly, to write, and to let God speak to my heart through it all. Enjoy this... or (better yet) join in?
Because most days I don't get it. I can't really speak it, and I certainly can't live it. What is true. I'm pretty aware of certain true things. I'm weak. I wear thin. My kids are crazy. They lack self-control almost as much as I do. I feel like life is an uphill battle.
But what of the things that don't seem true because I don't always feel them. What of the things that God speaks into my life that start to feel cliche at best and false at worst? The Truth that I am clothed in strength and dignity. That I am beautiful and deeply loved. That God is always good and always loves. That all is grace and there are a thousand things to be thankful for. That when the Holy Spirit lives in me, 5 hours of sleep is actually enough, and the low energy levels? They don't actually mean that much.
Am I going to define true by how I feel? It's a question I need to ask every day, right after I ask for God's name to be praised and for His will and for daily bread. Am I going to define true by how I feel?
Lord, no! Do not let me! Because my feelings lie like no one else. And You can use lies for good because they drive me back to the throne of grace and my weaknesses don't separate me from You. They build a bridge to deeper trust in You. And both can be true! I'm a weak, broken, messy mess mess. But I am beautiful and worthy of love because of the sacrifice of Christ on the cross. And they go together. And true is true regardless of how I feel.